it was a "why not" moment...

a warm monday, after yoga. i found myself in silverlake, wandering around. why not, walk into a boutique and laugh with the owners in cool t shirts and funky haircuts? why not step into the photobooth and spend two dollars? why not walk with my head held high? drink some mint tea at the indian cafe. talk about the alps and spain with the women in the cheese shop. try on a pretty dress. flirt with the french guy.

life is only an experiment really, she said. a series of choices, chances, moments.

i look for these openings now. a door that i can really walk through. and not just in my imagination. sometimes i'm scared. what will happen if...

and then it is always ok. except when it's not. and still it is.

he reminded me. "someday we will be out of somedays."

so i bought that ticket to germany. because it was a dream i had. and when they asked, aren't you going this summer, i paused. yes, actually, i am.

why not?