decided to stay home from san luis this weekend. too much coughing and couldn't imagine what the drive may do to me. sorry to miss the wildflowers, but it feels good to make decisions of care for myself.

so i treated conxi to lunch outside in the sun. we had red wine and talk of boys, and i dream of a similar reunion when i see her in her home in barcelona this summer.

we went to the native plant nursery that feels many miles away from the "city" where the breeze was cool, talked with a peaceful man about types of sage, california lilac, and the fact that grape vines loose their leaves in the winter. conxi put flowers in her hair. i bought grasses and a salvia to plant under my bedroom window. the peaceful man said it's scent will bring sweet sleep in the summer air, and conxi confirmed that in spain, the aroma is said to bring clarity of mind.

dear friend tami and baby samuel come again tommorow to be with me from their temporary home in the big oc. i feel blessed to have this friend for many years. her hands to keep me company in the dirt tommorow, and the light that is her child reminds of the fullness of the spirit.


easter morning we sing in latin. oh be joyful. be jubilant.


and to my parents, whose love crosses many miles and lasts forever. happy easter. may you know the death and the life of the resurrection. may your home swell with the goodness of spring, and smell like freshly cleaned wood.