i hear my friends laughing in the next room. it´s 11 and they are cutting cheese and spanish sausage, opening anchovies and olives. we walked and walked and walked today. i bought books and maps and music from this beautiful city. a scarf to wrap around my dress when it´s cold in the evening sitting outside, and a wallet i will keep forever with so many pockets and zippers.


i am full. of gratitude, of emotion at so much detail. of new convictions of what´s important, and what´s not. of anticipation of this new life that awaits me in cali. of fear that i will always be sad at the bottom of it all. of raw love for things like art and good food. literature and knowing things about the world and history. for languages and dance and making music from a place of imagination. chopping vegetables and hot coffee. friendship. for trying, becuase what else is life for?


i´m being called to toast. cheers to you loved ones, wherever you may be.