beyond tired today. we had anna's rehearsal for st bonnies on monday. waited two hours for them to open the gate, the rehearsed for another three. had a melt down this afternoon, probably need to have a few more to flush out the exhaustion and many emotions. thanks mom and dad for listening. i just needed to talk to you.

i feel a bit under attack, physically, with relationships here these last days. i am out of steam and vulnerable, and ask Jesus to provide strength as he has thus far. i had a moment today, thinking about where the Lord has brought me to... i hope this doesn't sound arrogant, but i feel he has made me a strong woman... i don't think i would have said that about myself one day years ago. i remember where i have come from, the place of chaos that seems so far away, a place i forget about sometimes, becuase it is so different from the life he's given now. i'm not sure that makes sense, but somehow i realize that i am able to be here, to have such an amazing journey and receive so much, becuase of the transformation he's done in my life. it's really an amazing thing to look back and see purpose in God moving, slowly, intentionally, with love and grace.


i'm not sure i will get to email again until i get to my parents. thank you everyone for so much support.